..WHAT GOES AROUND.

I (soo) wanted to post this on someone's wall and decided that I should restrain myself from doing so, for things to flow smoothly according to how they should happen.

First, I blame myself for being this way. I'm impulsive and tactless most of the times. I speak my mind simultaneously as I think of what to say. And yep, this brings me trouble. It isn't really to overemphasize the fact that I look for pain to feel that I'm alive, to look for heartache to know that I have loved.

Second, just because I don't feel what I felt before doesn't mean that I didn't feel anything at all. There's a difference. And maybe, we, humans were designed this way -- to feel one thing today and another tomorrow.

Third, although I seem to be a bad person to most people, even to those closest to me, I no longer see the need to prove myself to them. If people think of me that way, then, to hell with what they think. I'm sick and tired of trying to live the kind of life people expect me to. Seriously, I've been told a million times to grow up. I would if I know how.

And when I'm told that I've never really felt anything real or true for any matter, I kind of find it to be offensive in a way. It's just like telling me that I was full of pretenses. (Seriously... No one needs to tell the whole world or their friends the kind of person they think I am.)

In the end, I just wanted to rant for a moment. Yes, maybe I've hurt a few people or more, but then, "karma" will have to look for its way to find me. I may be headed for the worst, as the title of this note says, what goes around comes around; I'll fully embrace it.