♣♥ Addiction ♣♥

♣♥ Just some online game that i was addicted before and i think i’m on my way to coming back to it. It captured my heart once and given me comfort when i was at most of the time depress. Fly For Fun (FlyFF) had been some form of escapism for me, a barrier from which i shield myself from whatever it is that haunted me.

♣♥ Flyff...

♣♥ It’s where it all began. It started the rise of my character and the downfall of my life.

♣♥ The good things:

1. It got me and my brother a common bond between us. We started to have something to talk about.

2. I was able to use logic in building the character i have in-game.

3. And lastly?It’s where I met my heaven and my hell --- my Significant Romantic Other!


♣♥ Now, the bad things:

1. I forgot that i was still living in this world.

2. And that this world is real and existing.

3. I was always occupied with the gameplay and the person i met in the game – Marc.

4. I lost my grasp of things and i became passive, inactive, lazy and dull.

♣♥ But Flyff’s not that all bad! Although, i have to admit that if i had a choice, i wouldn’t have given my everything to it --- my time, effort and money. Better yet, I shouldn’t have played that game in the first place. It would have done me better if i just found myself hanging out with my friends and classmates. I wouldn’t have been this pissed about myself.

♣♥ Still...

♣♥ It’s too late turning back now.. I’m in the position where there’s nothing left but for me to continue what i have started. I mean, it’s not that bad at all..

♣♥ At least, i have to keep some of my memories of flyff... At least i met someone that’s worth my time. At least i’m happy with him. And i’m able to be with him~~~